Circus Of Shame (2012)
CIRCUS OF SHAME
Where am I? Am I awake? What happens here again ?
Is this real or was our lifes always closed in a big tent ?
“Ladies and Gents the show is starting
Take your seats and stop your talking
Acrobats gonna risk their lifes only for you“
I saw the eyes of the ringmaster
Bloody, black, full of disaster
At a glance his looks
Spears my soul like a screw
We‘re in the circus full of shame
I‘ll never wanna be the same
Lights go out - The crowd is roused
The circus march goes on
Or is that just the sound
Of plowing through life on and on?
Clowns on stilts creeping around me
Silent giggling, traceless entry
Two-head Fred, a dwarf race around with candy
Well, here he comes the living torso,
Bearded lady as a gogo
What the hell - is that in my head?
I‘m the voice who let you know – we want you for so long - We would like to make you our attraction Number1 - Just stay calm and lets enjoy our mutation fun - Sorry, we wont let you run until the job is done!
“Ladies and gents the show is starting
Take your seats and stop your talking
We present a girl in segments!”
LAST NAIL
Last nail rotte in my coffin
Now I’m 6 feet underground – the place where I belong
Last nail rotten in my coffin
No reason to run more rounds, I am gone …
You said you’ll never, you’ll never, you will never change
But now you dont turn back if we’re calling your name
Oh You forget how to make it right
How to stand your ground without crooked fright
You said you’ll love me,you’ll love me, you’ll love me till end
Oh but once I turn back you were breaking my neck
You left me for an easy life
That was better than the words you left behind
Now you can dig me out. There is nothing to be found
I can do what I want because I was never bound
I said I’ll never, I’ll never forget how you kiss
Oh but now after all thats the last what I miss
I go my way without weight by my side
Now let’s drink some booze,oh yeah it’s party time
DEAD AND BREAKFAST
Watch out of Hungary's biowaste
Maybe it’s hiding a human brain
Oh a boy - might have said something wrong
I wonder how hard it had to be
To chop up your boy as drunk as she
Just a bin – responsable for all her sins
When the curtain rise , we all clap our hands
Fot the blood, for the hate , for disease
With no edge of wrong
We just moving on and on
Dead and Breakfast
Just for you !
Ready for our delicious stew ?
Our special chef could make one for you
No big deal – he just needs a knife to peel
I wonder how hard had to be this job
To cram your girl in this little pot
What a grime for such a sick delicate time
SORROW BUS
6 AM , I am on the bus
And laugh about the god you trust
Have you ever seen what I see?
„No way out” they shout
with every breath
I see all the fears in their head
How could I smile when all they cry?
I want to show the faith my middle finger,
I wanna show it, but there is no way out!
On the sorrow bus dust fades the people
On the sorrow bus shades stay alive
Thousand miles away from where I want to stay
Till the sorrow bus ends his hellride
Rotten breeze, I feel a homeless man
Does he sleep, or is he dead?
Society yells: I dont care!
Undead heads, like bats
Just hang around
Smell of piss – fuck, I wanna shout!
Grey clouds in my mind drags me down
I course this day , the sorrow bus smashed my faith
I course this day, the sorrow bus brings me away
DOWN THE HILL
When I was a little girl, my mama told me Sue
„ Live your life without lies and figth for the truth „
Maybe Im a pretty ass, but hey I just play fair
A great aspect till life forgets to drop me more jokers in my hand
Twisted and shook me, used me as a pill
When you felt down you swallowed all of my goodwill
Went beyond the pale , run me down for your sins
On and on down the hill, now Im writing your bill
Down the hill I feel lost my mind
Hand in hand my shades gonna rise
My raving head , makes you pretty sad
But this time I wont feel regret
I lick my wounds, deal with thoughts I never had before
Oh I hate to break your heart , but mine is broken more
Chances after chances - but you threw them all away
I scream and shout, you laught me out
So tell me how can you smile so proud ?
She loves you but hates you ,doesn’t feel respect
She`s the monster you create with each of your steps
You think that you win, but you damage the best
I got into the night to come back satisfied
Down – the hill – we feel – lost our mind
We know not even one of us can win this at the end .
So sad.... so sad ... so sad
DON’T FEED THE MODELS
Have you ever heard of them
The shades who offer you a chance
To get societies' starlight
And all you have to do
Is to change your name, forget your style ,
and almost everything you are ,
no time to ask, hell, do your best
just be what the brand needs
When you wake up – first is the make up
Food is poison for you dear
Check the mirror, Babe from now on you eat water with some air
And if you’re really good – you gonna lose your boobs
Just after all, once you can go on the catwalk
Don't feed the models, don't feed the models
Don't feed, don't feed the models after midnight
Don't feed the models, don't feed the models
Don't feed, don't feed the models at night
Have you ever heard of them
The gremlins of wonderland
The ones who gonna laugh out loud
if you tell them what to do
No way to give up their style
Cause it's burned in their skin and eyes
With every move they make to prove
Don't need your fucking rules !
Little mad, but never sad
Unbreakable sick maniacs.
Hot as hell, they’re not to sell ,but always ready to attack
They won't follow you - just do what they wanna do
And don't care if you ever share their point of view .
FACE TO FACE
Without an intention I got your attention – lets see if you can listen, not just spit
Your awesome conclusion based on an illusion - makes me seeing red little bit
So I gotta go, we gotta go! No one is perfect! Yes I know!
But honestly I never try to be.
I tread the water, keep my head up
That’s the shit what makes me stronger
Sure you know it better than me
Face to face - Or run away, run away
Face to face - Tell it to my eyes
Face to face - There´s no escape, no escape
Face to face - Or get out my life
It’s a castration or just your frustration makes you talk so wise things all around
In my constitution you`re like some pollution who just want to foil to stand my ground
I just try live out life. Even if I do all right,
You gonna search till you find something wrong
Doesn’t matter what I do you will find a way to sue
Yeah behind my back you`re so strong
I wonder where did you left your life, that you have so much time to waste with analyzing mine.
What have I done? Just let me know. You don’t hesitate to tell everyone else so …
ALL I WANT ( Feat. Vic Victor from the Koffin Kats )
I wonder every night, when I walk alone
Why I’m the only girl who never got a rose
I wonder every night, when I walk alone
I wonder every night, is there anyone ?
Who will answer all the letters that I wrote to the one
I wonder every night, when Im walking alone …
Do I need anyone ?
I knew it at first sight, it was like a shark bite
Your voodoo-karma grabbed me, didn’t let me go
When I saw your blue eyes it was like a snake bite
Your poison made my heart beats on and on for you
Will I stay or run away
You chase me as a drug
Every night I curse the day
When we felt in hate-love
All I want – is raising my glass
All I want – when I know that your dead
All I want – is just you by my side
All I want – is at least 8 more lives
You’re home with the devil
You freak-hunter rebel
Please let me ram on day an icepick into your head.
You know I’m hypnotized
Of your freakin hot smile
But even more I wanna see an axt in your back
Even I tried, but I dont find
A way that keeps me satisfied
Oh I can’t go on with or without you
There’s no light, after all fights
How can I still be magnetized
Oh I wish that I’d never met you
I want it all - I want it now!
I wonder every night when I walk alone,
Will I ever find the way to the one
I wonder every night when I walk alone
Do I need anyone?
DON’T EXIST
I wake up and don't understand, what that bad feeling is around
My headache kills, I need some pills before I can find my thoughts
We always moved on side by side
Drank all night and forgot those types
of sorrows you’re now fearing.
I saw this something in your eyes
That something in you slowly dies
You just said: „Are you kidding?”
Why did you stop to stand your ground for your goals,
When did you stop to fighting for your soul, our soul…
I thought I saw you standing there, but I know you don't exist
I thought I heard your voice again, but I know you don't exist
Every time I close my eyes I wish you were alive
I could kill you, tell me why did you leave me behind
Now I walk this road alone
And feel the whisper in my bones
I have nothing to lose
Tell me, has this day an end
Do I have to give up my friend
What was your excuse
What is it what banished you away from me?
What is that what I have never seen or been,
Tell me why did you left me behind
All your lies made me cold as ice
DRAG YOU DOWN
You’ re the only undead
I can’t get you out of my head
I will drag you down to the otherside
I know heaven sounds well
But believe me in hell
We will have a good time
I played with my boys
Like my cat with her toys
But you run as a bulldog in my life
Oh, I felt so weak
It was hard to breath
When the devil throw his burning dice
Not even you can crack his smile
I started to panic if someone wanted to be a part of my life
My only love was rock’n roll, but you could touch my crazy mind
I’ll drag you down, I’ll drag you down
Where the sun wont ever shine
I’ll drag you down, I’ll drag you down
Let us leave this world behind
The only undead
Who’s still stuck in my head
I’ll drag you down to the otherside
Heaven sounds well
But believe me in hell
We could left for free our life behind
To be each others in crime
Hell was full, so I came back to you
EVIL SMILE
Burning dices in your hand - Let the evil smile
Put your rotten life on red - Let the evil smile
Flaming hot rods in the night - Let the evil smile
Rock ’n Roll till you die - Let the evil smile
There’s no escape if you let the evil in your mind
Hardcore maniac sick girls
Devil beat, voodoo curse
Drinking whiskey, up to smoke
Tatto your rebel soul
There’s no escape if you let the evil in your mind
Shake your, your billybones
Shake your freaky creepy bones
No idea about last night
Who’s that cock by my side?
Something more in your drink
Hunting for dirty things
Wanna drink more and more
See you bleeding on the floor
Wanna spank, spank your ass
Wish your an awful dead
ONCE I’M BROKEN
Once I’m broken, once I’m beating you
Once I’m singin that „I’ll never give it up” loud
Once I’m frozen, once you bleeding through
Once I’m singing that „I’ll never give it up”so loud
Was it me , was it you, was there anything
That made the sand ran out of my hand
What should I do? Have no clue what do you want from me
What the hell are you talking again
Im on the edge to lose all my respect
I try to forgive and forgetting the rest
Never kick me when I’m down, cause when I get back up,
you are fucked , cause I never forget.
Telling me, telling you that I’ll never be
Good enough for anyone else
Will you know, where to go, when Im leaving you
And I dance to the ring of the bells
Say I’m not worth it and watch where I end up
Maybe with scratches but gonna stand proud
So how long will you try to crack my evil smile?
Here’s a one-way-ticket straight out of my life
I’m so mad at you – now you gotta gotta go
I can’t stand how you move – now you gotta gotta go
How can I prove that you really gotta gotta go
There’s no light in the fight, just move on .
I wont feel regret - now you gotta gotta go
For those things that I said – now you gotta gotta go
No more place on my side – now you gotta gotta go
No im up , you go down – just move on
I will not regret for those things that I said
No more place on my side
Now I’m up you go down – just move on
Where am I? Am I awake? What happens here again ?
Is this real or was our lifes always closed in a big tent ?
“Ladies and Gents the show is starting
Take your seats and stop your talking
Acrobats gonna risk their lifes only for you“
I saw the eyes of the ringmaster
Bloody, black, full of disaster
At a glance his looks
Spears my soul like a screw
We‘re in the circus full of shame
I‘ll never wanna be the same
Lights go out - The crowd is roused
The circus march goes on
Or is that just the sound
Of plowing through life on and on?
Clowns on stilts creeping around me
Silent giggling, traceless entry
Two-head Fred, a dwarf race around with candy
Well, here he comes the living torso,
Bearded lady as a gogo
What the hell - is that in my head?
I‘m the voice who let you know – we want you for so long - We would like to make you our attraction Number1 - Just stay calm and lets enjoy our mutation fun - Sorry, we wont let you run until the job is done!
“Ladies and gents the show is starting
Take your seats and stop your talking
We present a girl in segments!”
LAST NAIL
Last nail rotte in my coffin
Now I’m 6 feet underground – the place where I belong
Last nail rotten in my coffin
No reason to run more rounds, I am gone …
You said you’ll never, you’ll never, you will never change
But now you dont turn back if we’re calling your name
Oh You forget how to make it right
How to stand your ground without crooked fright
You said you’ll love me,you’ll love me, you’ll love me till end
Oh but once I turn back you were breaking my neck
You left me for an easy life
That was better than the words you left behind
Now you can dig me out. There is nothing to be found
I can do what I want because I was never bound
I said I’ll never, I’ll never forget how you kiss
Oh but now after all thats the last what I miss
I go my way without weight by my side
Now let’s drink some booze,oh yeah it’s party time
DEAD AND BREAKFAST
Watch out of Hungary's biowaste
Maybe it’s hiding a human brain
Oh a boy - might have said something wrong
I wonder how hard it had to be
To chop up your boy as drunk as she
Just a bin – responsable for all her sins
When the curtain rise , we all clap our hands
Fot the blood, for the hate , for disease
With no edge of wrong
We just moving on and on
Dead and Breakfast
Just for you !
Ready for our delicious stew ?
Our special chef could make one for you
No big deal – he just needs a knife to peel
I wonder how hard had to be this job
To cram your girl in this little pot
What a grime for such a sick delicate time
SORROW BUS
6 AM , I am on the bus
And laugh about the god you trust
Have you ever seen what I see?
„No way out” they shout
with every breath
I see all the fears in their head
How could I smile when all they cry?
I want to show the faith my middle finger,
I wanna show it, but there is no way out!
On the sorrow bus dust fades the people
On the sorrow bus shades stay alive
Thousand miles away from where I want to stay
Till the sorrow bus ends his hellride
Rotten breeze, I feel a homeless man
Does he sleep, or is he dead?
Society yells: I dont care!
Undead heads, like bats
Just hang around
Smell of piss – fuck, I wanna shout!
Grey clouds in my mind drags me down
I course this day , the sorrow bus smashed my faith
I course this day, the sorrow bus brings me away
DOWN THE HILL
When I was a little girl, my mama told me Sue
„ Live your life without lies and figth for the truth „
Maybe Im a pretty ass, but hey I just play fair
A great aspect till life forgets to drop me more jokers in my hand
Twisted and shook me, used me as a pill
When you felt down you swallowed all of my goodwill
Went beyond the pale , run me down for your sins
On and on down the hill, now Im writing your bill
Down the hill I feel lost my mind
Hand in hand my shades gonna rise
My raving head , makes you pretty sad
But this time I wont feel regret
I lick my wounds, deal with thoughts I never had before
Oh I hate to break your heart , but mine is broken more
Chances after chances - but you threw them all away
I scream and shout, you laught me out
So tell me how can you smile so proud ?
She loves you but hates you ,doesn’t feel respect
She`s the monster you create with each of your steps
You think that you win, but you damage the best
I got into the night to come back satisfied
Down – the hill – we feel – lost our mind
We know not even one of us can win this at the end .
So sad.... so sad ... so sad
DON’T FEED THE MODELS
Have you ever heard of them
The shades who offer you a chance
To get societies' starlight
And all you have to do
Is to change your name, forget your style ,
and almost everything you are ,
no time to ask, hell, do your best
just be what the brand needs
When you wake up – first is the make up
Food is poison for you dear
Check the mirror, Babe from now on you eat water with some air
And if you’re really good – you gonna lose your boobs
Just after all, once you can go on the catwalk
Don't feed the models, don't feed the models
Don't feed, don't feed the models after midnight
Don't feed the models, don't feed the models
Don't feed, don't feed the models at night
Have you ever heard of them
The gremlins of wonderland
The ones who gonna laugh out loud
if you tell them what to do
No way to give up their style
Cause it's burned in their skin and eyes
With every move they make to prove
Don't need your fucking rules !
Little mad, but never sad
Unbreakable sick maniacs.
Hot as hell, they’re not to sell ,but always ready to attack
They won't follow you - just do what they wanna do
And don't care if you ever share their point of view .
FACE TO FACE
Without an intention I got your attention – lets see if you can listen, not just spit
Your awesome conclusion based on an illusion - makes me seeing red little bit
So I gotta go, we gotta go! No one is perfect! Yes I know!
But honestly I never try to be.
I tread the water, keep my head up
That’s the shit what makes me stronger
Sure you know it better than me
Face to face - Or run away, run away
Face to face - Tell it to my eyes
Face to face - There´s no escape, no escape
Face to face - Or get out my life
It’s a castration or just your frustration makes you talk so wise things all around
In my constitution you`re like some pollution who just want to foil to stand my ground
I just try live out life. Even if I do all right,
You gonna search till you find something wrong
Doesn’t matter what I do you will find a way to sue
Yeah behind my back you`re so strong
I wonder where did you left your life, that you have so much time to waste with analyzing mine.
What have I done? Just let me know. You don’t hesitate to tell everyone else so …
ALL I WANT ( Feat. Vic Victor from the Koffin Kats )
I wonder every night, when I walk alone
Why I’m the only girl who never got a rose
I wonder every night, when I walk alone
I wonder every night, is there anyone ?
Who will answer all the letters that I wrote to the one
I wonder every night, when Im walking alone …
Do I need anyone ?
I knew it at first sight, it was like a shark bite
Your voodoo-karma grabbed me, didn’t let me go
When I saw your blue eyes it was like a snake bite
Your poison made my heart beats on and on for you
Will I stay or run away
You chase me as a drug
Every night I curse the day
When we felt in hate-love
All I want – is raising my glass
All I want – when I know that your dead
All I want – is just you by my side
All I want – is at least 8 more lives
You’re home with the devil
You freak-hunter rebel
Please let me ram on day an icepick into your head.
You know I’m hypnotized
Of your freakin hot smile
But even more I wanna see an axt in your back
Even I tried, but I dont find
A way that keeps me satisfied
Oh I can’t go on with or without you
There’s no light, after all fights
How can I still be magnetized
Oh I wish that I’d never met you
I want it all - I want it now!
I wonder every night when I walk alone,
Will I ever find the way to the one
I wonder every night when I walk alone
Do I need anyone?
DON’T EXIST
I wake up and don't understand, what that bad feeling is around
My headache kills, I need some pills before I can find my thoughts
We always moved on side by side
Drank all night and forgot those types
of sorrows you’re now fearing.
I saw this something in your eyes
That something in you slowly dies
You just said: „Are you kidding?”
Why did you stop to stand your ground for your goals,
When did you stop to fighting for your soul, our soul…
I thought I saw you standing there, but I know you don't exist
I thought I heard your voice again, but I know you don't exist
Every time I close my eyes I wish you were alive
I could kill you, tell me why did you leave me behind
Now I walk this road alone
And feel the whisper in my bones
I have nothing to lose
Tell me, has this day an end
Do I have to give up my friend
What was your excuse
What is it what banished you away from me?
What is that what I have never seen or been,
Tell me why did you left me behind
All your lies made me cold as ice
DRAG YOU DOWN
You’ re the only undead
I can’t get you out of my head
I will drag you down to the otherside
I know heaven sounds well
But believe me in hell
We will have a good time
I played with my boys
Like my cat with her toys
But you run as a bulldog in my life
Oh, I felt so weak
It was hard to breath
When the devil throw his burning dice
Not even you can crack his smile
I started to panic if someone wanted to be a part of my life
My only love was rock’n roll, but you could touch my crazy mind
I’ll drag you down, I’ll drag you down
Where the sun wont ever shine
I’ll drag you down, I’ll drag you down
Let us leave this world behind
The only undead
Who’s still stuck in my head
I’ll drag you down to the otherside
Heaven sounds well
But believe me in hell
We could left for free our life behind
To be each others in crime
Hell was full, so I came back to you
EVIL SMILE
Burning dices in your hand - Let the evil smile
Put your rotten life on red - Let the evil smile
Flaming hot rods in the night - Let the evil smile
Rock ’n Roll till you die - Let the evil smile
There’s no escape if you let the evil in your mind
Hardcore maniac sick girls
Devil beat, voodoo curse
Drinking whiskey, up to smoke
Tatto your rebel soul
There’s no escape if you let the evil in your mind
Shake your, your billybones
Shake your freaky creepy bones
No idea about last night
Who’s that cock by my side?
Something more in your drink
Hunting for dirty things
Wanna drink more and more
See you bleeding on the floor
Wanna spank, spank your ass
Wish your an awful dead
ONCE I’M BROKEN
Once I’m broken, once I’m beating you
Once I’m singin that „I’ll never give it up” loud
Once I’m frozen, once you bleeding through
Once I’m singing that „I’ll never give it up”so loud
Was it me , was it you, was there anything
That made the sand ran out of my hand
What should I do? Have no clue what do you want from me
What the hell are you talking again
Im on the edge to lose all my respect
I try to forgive and forgetting the rest
Never kick me when I’m down, cause when I get back up,
you are fucked , cause I never forget.
Telling me, telling you that I’ll never be
Good enough for anyone else
Will you know, where to go, when Im leaving you
And I dance to the ring of the bells
Say I’m not worth it and watch where I end up
Maybe with scratches but gonna stand proud
So how long will you try to crack my evil smile?
Here’s a one-way-ticket straight out of my life
I’m so mad at you – now you gotta gotta go
I can’t stand how you move – now you gotta gotta go
How can I prove that you really gotta gotta go
There’s no light in the fight, just move on .
I wont feel regret - now you gotta gotta go
For those things that I said – now you gotta gotta go
No more place on my side – now you gotta gotta go
No im up , you go down – just move on
I will not regret for those things that I said
No more place on my side
Now I’m up you go down – just move on